Friendshiftlessly

Without surprise, maybe, I've become accustomed to the fact that those people I once counted as my best friends are now, in fact, more like acquaintances. They are people you call when you're in town to catch up or drunkenly text at 3 a.m. when your girlfriend is sleeping and doesn't want to be bothered. These are not the people you hang out with because they live in other cities. These are not the people you talk to because they dislike talking on the telephone. These are not the people you email or Facebook message because you feel that that is an even sadder transmission of emotion. These are the people, however, that you have in your wedding party. Why? Because no one else has even come that close to making you feel loved in that way before or since and you need their acceptance of your marriage whether they like it or not. No nostalgia monster here... just a final realization that my circle of friends needs to grow outside of those who once loved me fervently in the hopes that I can get around to learning to love again.